Friday, January 30 18:47


there's so many question to ask,
yet, i cant find anyone to help me answer.
this never ending story of mine, when will it end?

Ms Prema shared a story that was similar to mine.
About a friend, who is really really sick.
She said she understand what im going through.
Her words made me cry.
She said something like
"i understand how you're feeling cause this friend of mine is really sick and he doesnt have much time left"

I wanted to cry, but i hold back my tears and end up with teary eyes.
Prema said that prayers helps.
Even what i said in my heart, she's able to listen.
Prema even said that she bet leesy wants me to be happy and not sad.
True enough, but im just not strong enough.
I admit it, im not strong.

Naddd said " Faizah is living in denial "
Which is also true.

Okay, i think its enough of everyone's say.
Everyone said alot of things to pull me back.
Im not sure if its working.

Cancerstick, i'll die soon because of you.