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Ooh ,Afiq Danish Ghazali
Saturday, August 30 13:16
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch with, never say a word, and walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you have ever had.
Im missing Afiq more and more each day.
He's the guy that never speaks when i speak.
Never question when i tell him something.
Everyone hears what i say. Listen to what i say. But Afiq listen to what i don't say.
Everyone hears what i say. Listen to what i say. But Afiq listen to what i don't say.
PS; ever notice that the people who hurt you the most are the ones you tend to love more.
Ooh, Nurul Yazlynn Sazali
Friday, August 29 20:50
i just finish browsing the past years picture taken with cliques.i totally miss each and everyone.
im crying in the inside remembering how we stood up for each other.
having each other's back and being together as one.
somehow, i agree with yana.
things change so does everyone.
but i dont blame anyone for that.
its all part of growing up.
but i totally miss yazlynn.
i know i've post it out countless of times.
but its for real.
i miss her so much.
she was the one who shine the lights on me.
i was no one until she came and now, im a somebody.
i know its impossible to be by her side 24/7.
but im blessed she have amazing friends.
there's tonnes and tonnes of things that i wanted to tell her.
but, i understand how busy she is with school.
and as much as i wanted her presence at times when i need her,
i dont really mind when she isnt there.
going through everything alone isnt as fun as going through everything together.
I just wish I could roll back the clocks to when things were the same,
when we were all just a bunch of crazy teenagers looking for a wild time.
coming to school to create memories, and to remember like what im doing today.
yes, i cant deny that sometimes i feel left out ;
not catching up with things, and no longer be the first to know everything.
sometimes,we cant have just one bestfriends.
that is why, i go for cliques.
my sports buddies, my working peers, schoolmates, dancemates and
the one that stands out among the rest, my best of the best cliques in 3e4.
people like shya, mawar, nardd,mary,ain,aini,sob,khad,amalina,joey,weiting,sheng jie,keith,kevin,amanda,shafiee,saifullah,zainul,wanie,kecik,sillah,cel,sandra and yaxin
are the people that never fail to lift a smile on my face esp on wednesday.
but still, talking to these 21 people in my class isnt everything as compare as talking to 1 bestgf.
Ein,
You lifted me up when I was down, you made me smile when I forgot how too, you were there for me in my times of need, and you were there when I needed nothing at all.
I always come to you for help.
I walked up, and without a word, you knew what I needed.
A friend, a shoulder to cry on.
No words were spoken and I've never felt better in my life, thank you.
funny nickk
Wednesday, August 27 21:26
naim's nick makes me laugh.he wrote " last night, i lay in bed and look up at te star in the sky and i thought to myself.." where the hell is my ceiling" "
funny? hahhahhaha.
laughlaughlaugh
Md Quraisyidin
Monday, August 25 22:00
you walked out on me, again.tell me what should i do now ?
Saturday, August 23 10:29
no more hiding who i want to be.i got alot to blog about but i just cant type it out.
i've been stonning since just now.
anyway, ever since last tuesday, i wasnt really myself.
heartrending as it sounds, it really does hurt.
im still recovering myself from the pain i felt last tuesday.
bloghoppers who read my blog everyday,
definately knows that im in a situation which all i can do is watch the world spins around.
so i dont know if im getting better from the heartache or am just use to it.
yes i was disappointed but everyone makes mistake.
but mistakes can be repeated.
and im afraid that someone will just repeat what he did.
if boredom was the reason why you had a new friend,i dont mind.
but, cant you say "pls dont text me too much cause i have someone" ?
it isnt difficult.
i trusted you so much that i didnt controlled you in whatever you're doing.
but apart from this whole heart rending feelings,
the most hurtful thing is the trust that i gave was misused.
im not saying that i dont trust you anymore but,
im just telling you that it'll take time to regain my trust in you.
i walked to school with thousands and thousands of question running through my head.
i didnt know if i was dreaming or if its for real.
i wonder why you kept me in a room, so safe but you acted dangerously.
i've always wanted to be someone who means everything to you.
always.
but seriously, who am i to you?
you mean everything to me,
tho i cant see the love, still i can feel it.
ps; its the end of ignorance.
pss; i dont entertain my tagboard.
psss; you're the reason why im singing
Wednesday, August 20 22:07
ajey liao lah.im sick of the couples now adays.
its like so sickening yknow.
i was in the mrt.
and i saw a few couples.
im totally fine with these kids smooching but,the way the girls treated their boyfriends?
na'uh.
im disgusted.
i think boyfriends are created to be there for their girlfriend in time of need.
eg; shoulders to cry on,to make you smile when you're having bad days etcetc.
but i guess girls know adays take boyfriends for granted.
i mean, its sweet that guys helps you to carry your stuff when you need some hands.
but making them carry your bag, plus his heavy load bag,
isnt it a little bit too much?
please, guys are humans.
they dont like being treated like a dog.
cindy, you need to trust your boyfriend.
although he has alot of girl-friends, trust me, he loves you.
trust him in whatever his doing okeyy.
out of the people in the squad, you gave me lots of advises yesterday.
i know that you were able to reach out to me because, you're in my shoes too.
i agree,im not that strong, but im pretty sure,you're strong.
so AJEY LIAO LA.
i dont want my blog to consist alot of emoshitposts.
hahahahaha.
okey, sumpah, Fareez was damn funny in mother tounge class.
i slept in mother tounge class,i lost 12 marks for math.
okey, i know i'll fail my FYE.
oh yes, talking about Fye, i want to stop spending my money to buy the things i wished for in my wishlist.
i want to aim for a pass in fye just like i mention in my wishlist.
its a something i cant buy using money.
so yeah.
ps;AJEY LIAO.
pss; where's ajeyboyy?
Friday, August 15 17:52
Everyone knows that love makes you do crazy things,but did you know that love can be used as an excuse for ALMOST EVERYTHING IN LIFE?
I used love as an answer for everything; good or bad.
Love is the only reason people do things and love is the only thing people stay away from things.
Love is what people hide from and love is what everyone is looking for.
Agree?
so love love love love love love,
I love you, because of love.
I hate you, because of love.
I dont want you, because of love.
I dont want to see you, because of love.
I dont want to hear from you, because of love.
I dont want to think of you, because of love.
I dont want to be near you, because of love.
Love is the ONLY reason!
Love is the only reason i did this.
Love is the only reason i wanted to do this.
Love is the only reason you did that.
Love will be the only reason you will ever do anything.
Let me tell you something funny.
Love is the only reason you are reading this.
-Maybe you are reading this because you love my blogs.
-Maybe you are reading this because you love reading.
-Maybe you are reading this because I asked you to read this and because Im your friend.
If you didn't love me, I wouldnt be your friend.
-Maybe you are reading this because you are looking for a way to pass some time.
But you know what?
You love procrastination and you were looking for another way to pass some time.
Therefore, you are reading this for the love of procrastination.
-Maybe you are reading this because of love?
I'm here, because of love.
I'm alive, because of love.
I want to kill myself, because of love.
I didn't kill myself, because of love.
I won't kill myself, because of love.
I'm in pain, because of love.
I hurt my self, because of love.
I cry, because of love.I smile, because of love.
I help, because of love.
Love kills ! Love hurts ! Love sucks ! Love heal !
Love is fun ? Love is sex ?
Love is pleasure? Love is family ? Love is friend ?
Love is your soul mate?
Love is nothing but pain.
Love is a bitch.
Last on my list, but not the least.
Love makes you fall in love.
Btw, i wrote this because of love.
Love made me hate love.
I'm heart broken because of love.
&& love made me do it!
agree? D;
ps; sometimes i wonder what you think of me or if you do at all .so should i smile cause were friends, or should i cry cause that's all well ever gonna be.
16:19
Happy birthday kenrick and lisah :D
both are a hotties.
Thursday, August 14 20:17
Tags: Nadd,Ein,Nurul,Shya,Nad,Leesya,Andy,Mdm Wong,Hanif,Jadon,Papa,Amanda,Roxanne.You cant love two people at one time.
i want to blog about things that happen after school first.
i came in third position for the overall score.
the best part is running.
yes, i love running so much that i do running everyday
its as if im running away from everything.
no, i dont really feel tired of running.
well, if you're in my shoes, you'll know what i mean.
but,i know that i cant run away from the reality.
yes, i feel like crying just by listening to the song in my blog.
i cant tolerate this unbearable pain anymore.
i cried my ass out yesterday.
&& i had a bad day today, it was hectic.
i didnt really pay attention in english lesson.
sorry, prema.
after english was a free period.
ate ate ate ; i feel the urge of crying, but i hold my head up high and pretend im fine.
after free period was recess. sat at heritage hub and ate a cup of ice.
i payed attention during chemistry. (the world has turned upside down)
i threw questions during physics (the world is really upside down)
&& for C geog; i understand clearly everything + i asked questions + satisfy (everything is upside down)
sat in canteen for 10 mins.
received stupid msges from some guys.
i dont wish to tell what is it about -.-
wanted to buy myself blueberry tea and change sim card but notice that i lost my wallet.
its a total chaos. i cant imagine loosing my wallet.
everything is inside.
my ezlink card,keys,money,creditcards,nets,access cards which access me to everywhere in campus.
and the most important item; SIM card.
hanif said im so careless -.-
he has been msging me -.-
ajeey liao.
boo!
wanted to meet ms siti, unfortunately, she wasnt at her table.
ajey liao.
went for the rod.
stupid ; i went home at 1530.
mdm wong says no, but i called dad.
to my surprise, papa still remember the deal we made last time.
if i ever call him to talk to any teachers, its a definately " no, i want my daughter to go home now" quote.
i dont think its funny, so dont laugh. -.-
Thank you Naddd for making me feel better.though i feel like crying, you make me self-proclaim that im dumb enough to be like this.
Amanda, you're encouraging words really lighten me up.im glad someone was in my shoes.
Ein, i miss you alotalotalotalotalotalotalot.i could just cry by thinking of you.
Roxanne the hugs was comfortable enough.thank you.
i love you people alot.
the names that i mentioned at the top.
ps ; nadddd; "so close yet so far "
pss; i hope we're far at sight but still, close at heart. i still love you no matter what.
D;
Monday, August 11 21:43
i trip over the stupid fence while hurdling.okey bye.
ps; i love you
Sunday, August 10 21:33
i knocked myself on the wall.i wanted to kill myself after reading my text messages.
;both inbox and sent messages.
i think the world has turned upside down.
seriously.
okey,anoh is angry with an idiot.
didi just signed off.
sillah is talking to me about homeworks.
keith is asking me about homework.
andy is telling me how stupid china is in the olympic.
cindy is making me jealous by eating her tiramisu.
basically,im telling you about whom im chatting with.
okey, im angry with cindy .i wanna grab some bite.
:D
what if i make mistake?
what if i change the world?
what if i take the blame?
will you be there.
- simpleplan.
ps; i dont want to go to school anymore.
i hope my tomorrow never come.
embarrasing yknow!
*GRAWRR*
Saturday, August 9 19:30
The current song in my profile is titled "What If".Its a nice track.
Andy introduced me.
Andy was at the hardcourt. Leesya woke up late.
And Sarah couldnt bother cause she's tired.
Im missing everyone.
Yes,everyone.
But,i got to be honest.
i miss Jadon Wong
i miss Nurul Yazlynn
i miss Nurul Amira
i miss Tan Wei Ting
i miss Shaza Ruziani
i miss Chew Jia Hui
i miss Armstrong
i miss Faziee
i miss coach
i miss Boo
i miss 2007
i miss how things are before 2008
but i miss Md Quraisyidin the most.
he's the best guy that i can seek for.although we quarrel almost everyday,
that everyday that i spend with him, i cherish most.
no, a rock didnt knock on my head.its just that i dont feel that the people i want in life,is there for me anymore.
On the other hand,Didi never fail to let me know that he's there for me.
A lot of people walk in and out of my life, but he's one of the only ones I ever really wanted to stick around with.
I feel like I am sitting in a room full of people that I love, and you know what, they just don't care that I love them. They don't care whether or not I live or die. To them I'm just another girl, just another stranger. To me, they are my best friends, the only people I have left.
Ps : Last night when all the world is sleeping, I stayed up and think of you.
And I wish upon a star that somewhere, you are thinking of me too.
Thursday, August 7 18:22
Bloodyhell.drink bleach and die.
well,thank god its going to be a long weekend.
i wanna getaway holiday.
very badly.
thanks leesya for your making me feel better,
had a very long conversation with leesya.
i laugh, i cried.
the best thing about talking to leesya is;i can tell her everything & anything.
yes, im not afraid to tell her anything.
leesya thinks im stupid.
because she said one-sided love will lead to no where.
we had a little debate, as usual.
cause i know true love dont really exist.
and i told her maybe its just an infatuation.
&& then she reminded me of sharlin and khai
; getting in relationship at the age of 14 till now;22 .
-_________________________________________________-
HAHA!
well, this guy has always been there for me me since idontknow.
but leesya thinks im stupid and she said
[1846] Fer.leesya:
waiting for a guy for 3 years and nothing miracle happened,isnt okey.having onesided love,isnt okey.going crazy for him when you're not in his heart, isnt okey.Bitch,even if you're one, DONT BE A DUMB BITCH!it took you 3 fucking years for you to realise its not worth waiting for ming,and you're actually waiting for Jadon? are you insane?how long is it going to be now? 5..8 years? tell me when you're done waiting for him.its going to be a world record, i tell you.
yadayadayada. i agree,okey? (*leesya if you're reading; shut up sia.)
and she thinks i shouldnt wait because she can see the future.
and my future isnt with him -__________-
leesya, i'll tell you when i've stop waiting.
im waiting.but i'll stop showing.
ps; just a friend;that’s all i've ever been to you
just a girl;who wants to be the center of your world
Tuesday, August 5 17:22
Muhaimin; wearing blue.
Shamil.
Afiq
Ffaiz
okey, happy birthday to these gentleman.
today is tutu's 9 month.
unfortunately, she start crawling when i want to take a picture of her.
tutu is my pet bytheway.
haha.
i really want to buy her a new tank.
kysarah was like "omg! what did you feed her, she looks effing FAT&BIG"
hahaha.
tutu has been there for me.ceh, its stupid, but yea.
she listens to me all the time.
she'll just stare at me when im angry,sad or happy.
-__________________________________-
i think tutu is in pain cs she's not swimming.
but she's been staying put in a dry area.
haha. no, she's not dead cs she's still eating.
haha.
somehow, i've been swearing since just now.
cause i happen to see my face in stupid youtube.
in some video that was recorded.
and its not funny !
MORONS.
Sunday, August 3 11:23
this is ridiculous.i cant stand it anymore.
when i was having my shower,
i keep eye-ing an the bleach.
i wanted to drink it and die.
D;
ty Jadon, for making me feel better.
you're the best.
Friday, August 1 19:50
*update.Mistakes are a part of being human.I appreciate my mistakes for what they are, which is precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way.unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from.
this is what andy said to me in msn.
"We talk like we know what's going on. but we don't. we don't know anything. we're young and we're gonna screw-up a lot. we're gona keep changing our minds and even sometimes our hearts. and through all that, the only thing we can truly offer eachother is forgiveness
[1932]Anddy:
each other * "
yea, its true what any said luh.
andy has been helping me alot.
though we dont see each other anymore. T_T
It's hard to accept, but i can't change the past. i can't go back and manipulate things to the way i wanted them to happen. Because i guess,life would be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But well,i can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, ofcourse i will make mistakes. And yes, i will certainly have bad days ,but as long as i let the past go, i'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of me :D .
Knowing that things were meant to happen. knowing that each day i will learn something so that i keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that i have the chance in using something amazing from.
Well, that explains to my question since 3 weeks ago, which is ;
Who am i clinging to?
no one but the rope.
ps; Just because someone messes up once doesn't mean that within time they can't find a way to change for the better.
17:15
uhhh.
today was awesome.
apologise to everyone luh.
for one silly mistake. -_-
okey, Jadon, serioussweetness.
hahahahahahhahaha.
gfs was like; ohmygiddygiddygawd. go to hell izzie.
hahahahahahaha
hugged alot of ppl.
im so lazy to type out their names.
hahaha.
&& seriously, for god's sake,
whats the bigg fuss for?
-____________-
tmrw heading down to jurong east.
im going to impart my skills to the IYAD kids :S
and my task is to come out with an item ,
for thier national day performance on 26th august.
scarey sia.
hang out with Nadd & Raudha after scool,
they're super awesome.
i laugh at my own jokes, as usual.
&& went home at 1530hr, papa drove me home :D
saw khalil, he smiled at me,
but eventually, i didnt return a smile.
sorry uh.
okey whattheheck.
im late to meet mom.
but still playing with my pet teraphin; tutu.
she's turning 9 months soon.
haha.
happy sia.
but she likes to bite me now adays.
recently,she bite my belly.
&& i know this seem retarded but im buying her a big tank for her 9 mth
so she can swim around :D
and im going to place tutu in my room :DDDDD
best.
okeygo.
ps; why dont you love me,the way i love you?
if you dont want to stick around, then baby, forget about me.