okey, im crying chopchoopp.
this year, is much more interesting as i get by each day with different people.

i miss everyone.
everyone im with this year.
people like ; mawar,shya,nard,ein,andy,leesya,didi,cindy,dominic,
faziee, shawn, dian, shamil,asraff,jadon, deela,roxanne,izzuan,farhan,bulan,ain,
naddd,usmah,aqilah,shaza,faiz,syimah,alif,fauzie,andy,jin siang,shawndy,wei kang,fatimah,
sarah,nana,arif,aaliya,amirul, awie,wawan,khalil,kak atiqah,kak natasha,baya,irfeen.

there's too many names that i want to mention but i'll just say this few.
life hasnt been a smooth journey.
everyone wants to know why and whats up with me.
no words can descrie how i feel.
but i do appreciate it that everyone is here for me.

For now,
i have the best clique thats' going through everything with me.
not telling them isnt what they want from me but holding on to them is what important.
i'd like to highlight a few like sarah,isabelle,shya,asraff and didi.

Sarah has always been the best of the best of the best sister.
i never have to tell her what im thinking because she can always read my mind.
she's far from a friend and closer than family.
she's everything i hope for a friend.
but she isnt just an ordinary friend.
she's my sister and trust me,i can tell her anything D;

Isabelle has been bestfriend with me since 2 years ago.
people use to say we look identical.
and our grades are usually about the same.
she look up for me if she's in need.
and i always look up for her when i need someone.

Ever since shya and i are in the same class,
we hang around with other mates together.
Shya is the type of girl who put herself in your shoes,
try her best to help you with anything.
and the thing i like about her is her confidence.
when she wants something, she'll earn it (:

Asraff oyye.
everything about him reminds me of afiq.
the way he talks, the way he say things out of his mind,
the way he treated girls.
the only different thing about asraff and afiq is;
Asraff dance on stage and afiq dance in his shower.
Asraff has never pressurize me to tell him whats up with me.
and, he never fail to let me know he's there.
thats why i love this donkeyy.

Lastly,
i totally miss Md Quraisyidin Bin Aziz.
Didi never question me why or what or whatever.
Tho sometimes i flare up, really deep inside,
i really didnt mean to be angry with him.
sometimes, i loose myself.
And i havent been treating didi the right way.
im sorry dearest. T_T

someone said this to me
" if you can hold on to everyone, let go.
don't force yourself to grip on to everyone. it wont work"

i want to ask; " is it possible to let go of everything and everyone"
some says its not and some says it is.
im feeling worst then ever.
i want to hug the people whom i mention.
T_T

ps; i wanted to mention about someone and what he has done for me for the past few weeks.
but my brother will kill me if he reads about it.